|picture taken in melbourne,australia :)|
After getting my results, I had this mixed feeling inside of me, not feeling head over heels over it but I wasn't exactly sad until the extend of crying. Well, it was more like a feeling of "ok, I predicted this results and I got this results". Of course when you hope for something, you want the best out of it but of course you kinda predicted the whole outcome but you just want more.
But nevertheless I worked my ass off this 1.5 years studying like a mad person, of course the brain of intelligence is not given to everyone when they are born, for my case instance, I've believe that if you work hard enough, eventually your hard work will pay off.
Let me tell you A levels ain't easy at all especially when you are taking 5 subjects in the first and second sem and 4 subjects in the 3rd sem. Come on, and its 3 science subjects. It seems so easy in secondary school that when you go into A levels, your brain just hits you and tell you it can't absorb everything like it did in secondary school, and you just feel like an idiot mostly all the time surrounding your brilliant classmates everyday.
Well, I'm still blessed with the results I got, reminding myself not to compare with others because comparing leads to just more comparing and it wouldn't get you into anywhere. I mean getting 3As and 1B isn't really the top but its not at the bottom as well.
But the most depressing thing is when people ask you " hey, so what did you get for your A levels results?" and you tell them your results, people just paused for a second like they don't know how to react, and answer back like " oh, NOT BAD WHAT"..
NOT BAD????!! -.- are you joking me? Do you know how hard is A levels and how hard is it to score an A in every subject and you have to say " not bad " without even congratulating. Why don't you try going through hell studying all night just to sit for a paper just hoping you pass in a test, trying to just appreciate you results and you are trying to forget the fact that you have to stop comparing with the other brilliant people in this world?! When someone worked so hard for something at least congratulate them for working hard.
Its so annoying that people tend to judge you based on the results you get, and to judge your level of 'good' based on whether you get FULL As or not. Especially with the people who aren't close to you and they judge even more. It seems so shallow how people can be nowadays.
Ok, I'm done. Why am I writing this? Well, its just the sudden thought of mine that comes flowing in once a while, reminding me the incidents in life that is least memorable.